Being an empath, I tend to feel the pain of others probably more than my own pain. I emotionally feel the suffering to the point that it’s almost a physical pain. But the world is so dangerous these days, that I have learned to block out the violence and hatred of events over which I have no control. Basically, it’s a self-preservation technique. Otherwise, I’d be constantly drained of energy.
That being said, for some reason, the violent, deadly events in south Florida have hit me like a ton of bricks. The senseless killing of the young singer, and the mass shooting at the nightclub have made me very, very sad. I wasn’t familiar with the young lady, nor I doubtfully know any of the victims of the nightclub violence, but the sheer awfulness of both events weigh on me heavily.
There is a heaviness hanging over our society, and perhaps that magnifies these brutalities. The political climate in the United States is spectacularly grim. The hatred and intolerance are palpable. When our “leaders” provoke the rage of segments of society, how can we be shocked over escalating violence? When the gun lobby exerts so much influence over our elected officials that the deaths of 20 children between the ages of 6 and 7 at Sandy Hook Elementary school moves no one to do anything about our gun problem, how can I be shocked over some hateful, perhaps disturbed person walking into a nightclub that caters to LGBT customers, and open fire with a yet another assault rifle?
I’m not surprised, I’m just deeply saddened and troubled over it all. As a Wiccan, I understand that I don’t have any kind of power to prevent events such as this happening. But tomorrow, I’m going to perform some kind of ritual that at least expresses my feeling about this to the deities. It’s what I can do, it’s all I can do.
My heart goes out to the families of all the victims of these violent acts. They are feeling pain that far too many families feel due to senseless violence.